never eat the soup

Draw-yourself thing. Ganked from ghostgecko.

This is, quite seriously, the best I can do.

Went to fireworks yesterday in a city that I didn't know existed. Spent about 15 minutes just looking into people's faces and marveling at how many of them looked exactly the same and yet so different. Was yelled at by people I didn't know. Then I got bored, or overstimulated, or something, and stopped noticing anything at all.
Book recommendation: "Freakonomics." Will make you feel incredibly clever and incredibly dumb at the same time. Or maybe that's just me, because I'm lazy and my head feels like it is stuffed with cotton wool.

I have to go to work in about 10 minutes. I really, really don't want to. There's a new guy there who doesn't know how to do anything and keeps giving me the wrong trays and the manager blames me every time I wrap a sandwich that was supposed to be "for here." Also, apparently when I get stressed or unusually think-y, I start talking strangely. As such:

Me (cheerful, normal): "Hi!"
Customer: "What sizes y'all got?"
Me: "Large, medium, or small!" (practically shrieking with forced happy)
Customer: "Ah just wanna use the restroom."

Me (stressed, think-y): "Hellll-o."
Customer: "What sizes y'all got?"
Me: "Um, lll-arge, which is, uh, twelve in-ches...mediummmm, which is, um, six...nine, actually...smallll...which is six. Inches, I mean. Um...I think that's it."
Customer: "Anyone ever tell you ya kinda talk like the Comic Book Guy from the Simpsons?"
Me: "WHATKINDOFSANDWICHWOULDYOULIKESIR."

Mom thinks I'm doing it on purpose to be annoying. Luckily, the managers never ever notice anything about their employees, and so I am safe as long as I stay in the back room washing dishes and sorting chips.

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I have no useful answers anymore. I'm sorry...

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Work was terrible and I hate people. Yes, I'm still feeling insecure and misanthropic.
Creativity seems to be cyclical with me--I go through dormant phases, consumer phases, and productive phases. Just got out of productive phase--made lots of jewelry and wrote a story which I haven't posted yet. Am in consumer phase--keep going to Border's and buying books. Buying new books makes me feel better, which is, if shallow, at least shallow on an intellectual level.

I know there are a couple of people who actually enjoy reading my LJournal on an aesthetic level and not just a personal level. To them, I apologize for being so boring and self-involved lately. And I also recommend Flag On The Moon, the personal blog of Jack Masters, the creator of CastleZZT. This should appeal to people who also like Crispin Glover, math in the abstract, New Wave SF, outsider art, and pretending that other people are actually installation pieces. His blog doesn't have anything to do with any of the above, but something about his comics and meanderings reminds me of them.