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Hey! Nineteen!
Aug. 22nd, 2005 03:35 pmI am even more squirmingly jealous over the voyage of the Baltimore Irregulars, which ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ghostgecko is meticulously recounting in his LJ. They apparently had a really good time, which makes me happy.
Anyway, I have my birthday to look forward to. It's tomorrow. I turn nineteen. Andnyghtshayde sent me a pretty handmade card.
Way back when
In ninety-seven
I was just starting
Junior high
Dumb young thing
So scared and skinny
Moved up to Central
Now where the hell am I?
In one year, I've joined a fandom, met friends (who I love very much) through the fandom, made enemies through the fandom, got banned from a message board, met a guy that I liked and then got banned from his journal for no apparent reason, broken up with a girlfriend, found a nice lady who I love and who is kind of my girlfriend, started a novel, abandoned said novel, become interested in zombies, become obsessed with Oingo Boingo, gotten new icons, gotten severely depressed and then gotten out of it, driven my neurotic roommate out, made some new friends in real life, fallen in love several times, impressed some professors, learned many things, created new theories, lost a grandfather, gained a dad-wife and a new house, bought new clothes, and written a hell of a lot of fanfiction.
All in all, it's been a good year.
I've been looking through my past entries and found this, from September: Rachel babbles about fanfiction. A quote from part of said entry:
I can't really think. My mind is clogged up. You know how sometimes a random movie or book or some kind of fandom will latch onto your mind and you really can't get rid of it? I watched Back To The Future about a month ago and bits of the movie are still playing in my head. YTF (why the fuck) should this be? Can't I get something else stuck in my head, like Neal Stephenson books or my homework maybe?
There is, however, an antidote. What I need to do is write a big all-inclusive fic that will involve everything I think about the movie. I did this with the Askewniverse when I wrote The Divine Rehabilitation of Jason Mewes and it worked fairly well.
Actually, this may be two fics. One will involve extensive therapy with Delusional!Marty and the other will probably involve an alternate universe Philip K. Dick talking about Darth Vader.
Wrote both of those. Didn't expel the movie from my mind. If anything, I am bound and determined to mine every single idea I have until I have either impressed or alienated every single person in the fandom, ever.
I did get two more reviews on TisW&aP, from Foxy Lady and some other person. Which should have made me happy, but didn't. I'm not totally sure why.
I don't get very many reviews anymore, particularly not on my fanfiction. For the most part, I could care less about random online reviews of my original stuff, because if I write something original (which I haven't in a while, and I really should), I can just take it to Fic Collective or Poetry Collective and have people carefully dissect it for me. My Fictionpress account is more of a storage unit than anything. I can't really get that kind of attention from fanfiction; there aren't any Fanfic Collectives around here, and I'm really hesitant to bring my fanfic into Fic Collective. So I just toss it out online and let the reviews trickle in slowly.
I suppose I have myself to blame. For one thing, I'm writing in a very small fandom. For another thing, I seem to have alienated the "important people" in the fandom very early on, or at least not made a huge effort to befriend them.drworm and ghostgecko are important to me, but I seem to lack a syncophantic fanbase who will obsessively review every single piece of crap I write. How do I get one of these? Do I join more message boards? I don't want to, but I might as well. I hate joining new message boards, I always feel like they're going to drive me out with tar and feathers if I say anything. Is it as simple as reviewing other people's work? But so many of the fics suck, and I just don't have anything to say about them, or I can't stand reading them. drworm and ghostgecko have spoiled me for all other BttF fic in that respect. Or maybe I should start writing Mary Sues instead, that seems to be popular.
Or maybe I should go back to writing Askewniverse slash. It's such a loving, warm, supportive community, and I did get the best review I've ever gotten fromlemmealone on it (I still go to re-read that sometimes and just bask in my former glory)...but I really don't have any ideas for fic in that fandom anymore, besides a rather silly crossover with Re-A that I've been kicking around for a few months. Oh well.
In any case, my new, little laptop awaits. I now go to be productive and get my 20th year on this planet off to a good start. Wish me luck.
ETA: Speaking of reviews, someone's mad at me. I checked my FictionPress account, worried that someone had hacked into it and flamed someone else on my account--no dice, I recognize everything in review history. Maybe the anonymouse got the wrong journal?
ghostgecko is meticulously recounting in his LJ. They apparently had a really good time, which makes me happy. Anyway, I have my birthday to look forward to. It's tomorrow. I turn nineteen. And
nyghtshayde sent me a pretty handmade card. Way back when
In ninety-seven
I was just starting
Junior high
Dumb young thing
So scared and skinny
Moved up to Central
Now where the hell am I?
In one year, I've joined a fandom, met friends (who I love very much) through the fandom, made enemies through the fandom, got banned from a message board, met a guy that I liked and then got banned from his journal for no apparent reason, broken up with a girlfriend, found a nice lady who I love and who is kind of my girlfriend, started a novel, abandoned said novel, become interested in zombies, become obsessed with Oingo Boingo, gotten new icons, gotten severely depressed and then gotten out of it, driven my neurotic roommate out, made some new friends in real life, fallen in love several times, impressed some professors, learned many things, created new theories, lost a grandfather, gained a dad-wife and a new house, bought new clothes, and written a hell of a lot of fanfiction.
All in all, it's been a good year.
I've been looking through my past entries and found this, from September: Rachel babbles about fanfiction. A quote from part of said entry:
I can't really think. My mind is clogged up. You know how sometimes a random movie or book or some kind of fandom will latch onto your mind and you really can't get rid of it? I watched Back To The Future about a month ago and bits of the movie are still playing in my head. YTF (why the fuck) should this be? Can't I get something else stuck in my head, like Neal Stephenson books or my homework maybe?
There is, however, an antidote. What I need to do is write a big all-inclusive fic that will involve everything I think about the movie. I did this with the Askewniverse when I wrote The Divine Rehabilitation of Jason Mewes and it worked fairly well.
Actually, this may be two fics. One will involve extensive therapy with Delusional!Marty and the other will probably involve an alternate universe Philip K. Dick talking about Darth Vader.
Wrote both of those. Didn't expel the movie from my mind. If anything, I am bound and determined to mine every single idea I have until I have either impressed or alienated every single person in the fandom, ever.
I did get two more reviews on TisW&aP, from Foxy Lady and some other person. Which should have made me happy, but didn't. I'm not totally sure why.
I don't get very many reviews anymore, particularly not on my fanfiction. For the most part, I could care less about random online reviews of my original stuff, because if I write something original (which I haven't in a while, and I really should), I can just take it to Fic Collective or Poetry Collective and have people carefully dissect it for me. My Fictionpress account is more of a storage unit than anything. I can't really get that kind of attention from fanfiction; there aren't any Fanfic Collectives around here, and I'm really hesitant to bring my fanfic into Fic Collective. So I just toss it out online and let the reviews trickle in slowly.
I suppose I have myself to blame. For one thing, I'm writing in a very small fandom. For another thing, I seem to have alienated the "important people" in the fandom very early on, or at least not made a huge effort to befriend them.
drworm and ghostgecko are important to me, but I seem to lack a syncophantic fanbase who will obsessively review every single piece of crap I write. How do I get one of these? Do I join more message boards? I don't want to, but I might as well. I hate joining new message boards, I always feel like they're going to drive me out with tar and feathers if I say anything. Is it as simple as reviewing other people's work? But so many of the fics suck, and I just don't have anything to say about them, or I can't stand reading them. drworm and ghostgecko have spoiled me for all other BttF fic in that respect. Or maybe I should start writing Mary Sues instead, that seems to be popular. Or maybe I should go back to writing Askewniverse slash. It's such a loving, warm, supportive community, and I did get the best review I've ever gotten from
lemmealone on it (I still go to re-read that sometimes and just bask in my former glory)...but I really don't have any ideas for fic in that fandom anymore, besides a rather silly crossover with Re-A that I've been kicking around for a few months. Oh well. In any case, my new, little laptop awaits. I now go to be productive and get my 20th year on this planet off to a good start. Wish me luck.
ETA: Speaking of reviews, someone's mad at me. I checked my FictionPress account, worried that someone had hacked into it and flamed someone else on my account--no dice, I recognize everything in review history. Maybe the anonymouse got the wrong journal?
