i followed you from brutal honesty- which i lurk in but never comment.
well, until now.
you are a writer. a poet.
that is what you are.
what you do for a living however, is entirely a different thing.
you are good. this is great. i really do love it. I've read it several times and each time i uncover a new level of meaning.
don't ask so many questions. there are no answers.
be what you are (a poet as i said) and things will work out. if you try to be something else- anything else- you'll never be happy.